By Tammy Tran
Sometimes the thoughts we thing about ourselves can be dangerous and cause us to fall off track. But once we come to realize how amazing we really are, the picture becomes a lot clearer.
You put these thoughts in my head I couldn’t erase
It convinced me that I was always in last place
That I could try my hardest, but it wouldn’t work
It kept me up at night, causing me to go berserk
I began ignoring messages, school, and calls
Because I felt like I was a nuisance
Like I was some sort of toxic pollution
I began to fall behind in all of my classes
But I ignored it and put on sunglasses
I started sleeping later and later
As my mind became more of an instigator
Making me more and more reckless by the day
In my head, I thought that it was okay
I mean, aren’t I fixing the problem?
Am I not trying to make myself flawless?
So that I could be less of a disappointment?
I’ve been trying to become ointment
To something that didn’t need healing
Because I was overwhelmed with this feeling
That I wasn’t good enough for the people I knew
Like I was the flu
Causing them to get sick and tired of me
Sometimes, I wonder if I’ll be set free
From the cage I’ve trapped myself in
I’m not going to wait for someone to break-in
And rescue me like I’ve been wanting
Instead, I’ll be watching
I want to finally see myself grow
And I know it may go very slow
I’ll at least be able to look at myself in the mirror
And see myself clearer